I have spent the better part of two days obsessing over something I probably shouldn’t be obsessing over. I have spent countless hours lying in bed, awake, with my thoughts racing through scenario after scenario. I’ve awakened in the wee hours of the morning unable to fall back asleep because my thoughts immediately turn to this something that is weighing so heavily on my mind. Today has been no different. Until this…
Yesterday’s poor choices don’t have to define today. We can look at today’s blank canvas & know possible victory is a few good choices away.
— Lysa TerKeurst (@LysaTerKeurst) April 3, 2016
THIS speaks volumes to me right now, in this moment, and it is profound! Today IS a blank canvas. Yesterday’s problems are yesterday’s problems. The problem that’s weighing so heavily on my mind, pushing me so far down that it’s robbing me of today’s joy, is yesterday’s problem. So why am I allowing it to steal my time and overshadow everything else going on around me?
This, problem, involves my job. It involves a decision I made based on the training I received and knowledge I’ve gained over the course of the past few years. It also involves a decision I made without having been given all the facts. Be that as it may, the buck stopped with me and the entire weight of the situation was place squarely on my shoulders. I have gone through every detail countless times, only to realize that there is nothing that can change the situation because it is now history. With the changes occurring in my career field and within the company that employs me, I can now see new avenues opened to me that weren’t necessarily there before. I can see that there are other options that not only make my job easier, but take much of the burdens off my shoulders so that I am better able to function in my professional life and my personal life. There are other avenues I can explore even without having all of the details shared with me. I’ve been obsessing over my feelings of betrayal and disappointment and it hasn’t change anything! It has only mentally taken me away from those around me, and left me exhausted both mentally and physically.
Today is a new day, a blank canvas. A fresh start. And so is tomorrow. It’s okay to bring yesterday’s lessons because it is those very lessons that will make tomorrow’s problems seem much easier. It is the lessons learned that define who I am. Not the choices I’ve made.
Thank you Lysa TerKeurst for allowing God to use you to bring the message to me that I’ve been seeking over the past few days. And thank You God for hearing me and answering my prayers.