I am a huge fan, even if a late bloomer, of a few comic tv series. The one that is my most favorite- the one I cannot miss no matter what; the one that sparked my newfound addiction to comic television shows- is ARROW which is, of course, a tv show about the famous DC character Green Arrow. This newfound addiction has of course led to major fandom of Olive Queen a.k.a Green Arrow played by the incredible Stephen Amell.
Now I will admit that I have not been watching Arrow since it first aired. In fact, I marathon watched the first 3 seasons in about a one week period; and haven’t missed an episode since. Not since Charmed have I been this addicted (for lack of a better term) to a tv show and its characters.
In a profound moment of utter joy and absolute star-struck child-like giddiness, I was able to meet my tv show hero, Stephen Amell- the Green Arrow. I, along with my hubby and kiddo, attended our very first comicon yesterday for the sole purpose of getting to see this acting genius in all his real-life glory. It was a very brief but exciting moment and one that I will remember for years to come thanks to having captured it in photo form.
This amazing moment of my adult life will go down as one of the more notable ones in my book of memories, and also as one of the most sobering and gut punching reality checks. Upon receiving our amazing “family” photo with Stephen, my mind suddenly went negative. My first comment and only comment was “well this would be a great picture if I wasn’t in it.” After seeing myself and the shock of reality, I couldn’t get out of that convention center fast enough.
Talk about wake up call. I look like a cow. Those were the words I used when describing this moment to my friend.
It is true that in the past 5 years I have gained, at least, 60 pounds. I say at least because I haven’t been on a scale since Jan 1. My weight has ballooned out of control and I have done nothing to stop it. I have yo-yo’d at best for about a year, or so. Lose a few, gain a few more. I have procrastinated and blinded myself to the reality of just how out of hand it has gotten.
I am saddened by the fact that I can’t be happier about a once in a lifetime moment because I can’t get past the size of my body. I just met someone of whom I am a huge fan (dare I say a celebrity crush)- face to face. And all I can think about is how fat I am. This, my friends, is a sign that it is time to jump in head first and live- really live! It’s time to take my health into my own hands; to get control over it once and for all, and to look back on memories with joy and happiness not sadness and body shame.
I have the tools I need, now I’m going to put them to use. Today I am getting ready to step into the Trim Healthy Mama life permanently. No looking back. I will set no “deadlines.” I will not push myself to hit a number goal by a calendar day. I will just focus on one day at a time; one healthy meal at a time. No matter how long it takes, I will embrace this journey and remind myself that I will reach that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow in my own time. No pressure. No unrealistic expectations. No more failure. Only success.
Here’s to a new healthy life! And to one day getting a chance at another photo with my comic hero, without any negative thoughts!
P.S: the photo was taken by Epic Photos and is a quality print. I took a picture of the picture in order to share it in this post.
P.S.S: I really do have a huge fan-crush on Oliver Queen; who wouldn’t? He is incredibly coooool and pretty darn sexy too 😉
P.S.S.S: I was more giddy meeting Stephen Amell than when I met Roman Reigns. How is that even possible?
P.S.S.S.S: I promise this is the last one. If you don’t know what THM is, I highly suggest you check out Trim Healthy Mama. There is a whole amazing life-changing network available to you. And if you’re anything like me, you need all the support you can get!